Oct 26 2011

Best Birthday ever, I remember thinking I wonder how tomorrow could ever follow today.


Thank you Jon.

oct 5 2011

today has been the worst day I have had all year.

Nov23 -1953-2003

You know that saying "A mans best party only happens when he dies" ? Well it was the night before my Dad's 50th surprise party when he past away suddenly of a heart attack in his sleep. He was so close to getting his party, well he still got it I guess.

moving on.

I am stuck at this point in my life where I am afraid to make anymore mistakes. I am so afraid to move forward, I just want to pick the right direction this time I don't want to do something that will set me back.
but if I don't move now I never will.

All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GFW-WfuX2Dk

I never really enjoyed Fefe Dobson, we'll maybe one song a couple years back "Bye Bye Boyfriend" wasn't so bad. But my friend worked a on an interview with her. She explains a few things about her new song. "Hurry up and tell the truth, if you really cared about me." was the main thing I got out of it, and it really changed something in me. When I was younger I was dating this guy, for a couple months, I ended up cheating on him. I had to tell him, I was honest and it was real. Real feeling, and real pain. I, not only hurt him terribly but myself too, I lost all hope that I was any good. So I avoided contact with most people, in fear I wouldn't be honest. What I am getting at is through experience and through honestly, I've learn to trust myself, now all you have to do is trust me too.




I prove that catchy sayings aren't always true.

ugh

I think i have this natural quality inside me(much like my dad did)that finds the beauty in everything. That sounds really cliche. I wish I got paid for it, it could be my full-time job. I just feel I have this tendency to make people feel good about themselves...maybe it's because I know what it's like to be hated. Nobody should have that feeling.

This one started off so strong.
damn.