who ever said less is more.

When I was younger I was on every sport team, band, set design, acting, singing, dancing and any type of group you can think of. I wanted to do everything. I once wrote that the reason I did this was because I felt so different from everyone and i wanted to relate. "To fit in" but now I realize it's because I know I can do anything I want, just have to want it bad enough.
and that I will always be different.



who ever said less is more.

semi-normal

For so long I always thought I had some mild form of OCD. Till one day my friend said that he lived by the statement "If I'm going to do something, I'm going to do it right" Now I understand why I do things a certain way.. I always thought about it in a negative way. But not so much anymore. There's nothing wrong with wanting to do things right. Right?

Now if only everyone could live like this.

cocorosi.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0WpBKhlegF0

In a dream I was a werewolf
My soul was filled with crystal light
Lavender ribbons of rain sang
Ridding my heart of mortal fight

Broken sundown fatherless showdown
Gun hip swollen lip bottle sip yeah I suck dick
Lose grip on gravity falls sky blinding crumbling walls
River sweep away my memories of
Children’s things a young mother’s love
Before the yearning song of flesh on flesh
Young hearts burst open wounds bleed fresh
A young brother skinny and tall my older walks
Oceanward and somber, slumber sleeping
Flowers in the water,
But I’m just his daughter
Walking down an icy grave
leading to my Schizophrenic father.
Weeping willow won’t you wallow louder
Searching for my father’s power

I’ma shake you off though
Get up on that horse and
Ride into the sunset
Look back with no remorse

He’s a black magic wielder some say a witch
Wielded darkness when he was wilein’ on his mom’s
And born child and he was the bastard that broke
Up the marriage evil doer doing evil from a baby carriage
And he was born with the same blue eyes
Crystal ships dripping with ice, diamonds coruscate
In the night fireworks electric bright
And now he’s got his own two sons
Tried to hide his tearz in a world of fun
But loveless bedrooms filled with doom
Bring silent heartache July to June
Woon over new young hot flame
Mourn the memories later
Laugh now aligator

Oh in a dream
My father came to me
And made me swear that I’d keep
What sacred to me
And if I get the choice
To live in his name
I pray my way through the Rain
Singing Oh happy day

I don’t mean to close the door
But for the record my heart is sore
You blew through me like bullet holes
Left staind on my sheets and stains
On my soul
You left me broke down beggin for change
Had to catch a ride with a man who’s deranged
He had your hands and my father’s face
Another western vampire different time same place
I had dreams that brings me sadness
Pain much deep that a river
Sorrow flow through me in tiny waves of shivers
Corny movies make me reminisce
Breat me down easy on this generic love shit
First kiss frog and princess

finally.

When I was growing up people always had such a strong opinion on who and what I was going to be. This is really going to be the hardest things to grow out of. To be honest to myself and stop listening to everyones opinions of me. I need to just do what ever I want becaue that's what makes me who I am.

...its not about what you have to say.

awesome.

I was lying in my bed basked in a sunbeam this morning, too comfortable to get up and take my pills, when I thought, Hey what if I'm not, you know, emotionally challenged? What if I'm just lazy? Maybe if I worked harder at cultivating happiness, I'd just sort of out grow my depression. You know, render it irrelevant. Don't be lazy about your pursuit of happiness.

I devoured A Million Little Pieces, and My Friend Leonard. They were tasty.
After reading them i became initially curious about TAO. My first instinct was to learn some more about it. So thats exactly what I did. This is just a bit of the things that really stuck with me. If you intrested in these you should really pick a book and study a bit. Im sure you will be as intrigued as I was.... maybe even learn a bit?

44. What is more important? Fame or Intergrity. What is more valuable? Money or happiness. What is more dangerous? Success or Failure. If you look to toher for fulfillment, you will never be full. If your happiness depends on money you will never be happy. Be content with what you have and take joy in the way things are. When you realize you have all you need, the world belongs to you.

36.If you want to shrink something you must first expand it. If you want to get rid of something you must first allow it to be given. The soft will overcome the hard. The slow will beat the fast. Don't tell people the way, just show them the results. Knowing other people is intelligence, knowing yourself is wisdom. Mastering other people is strength, master ing ourself is power. If you realize that what you have is enough, you are rich truly rich. Stay in the center and embrace Peace, Simplicity, Patiences and Compassion. Embrace the possibility of death you will endure. Embrace the possibily of life and you will endure.

74. If you understand that all things change constantly there is nothing you will hold on to, all things cahnge. If you aren't afraid of dying, there is nothing you can't do. Trying to control the future is like trying to take the place of the Master Carpenters tools, chances are that you'll cut your hand.


did I arouse the curiosity?

theformat

cause whats left to lose
i've done enough
and if i fail, then i fail
but i gave it a shot
adn these last 3 years,
i know they've been hard
bvut now it's time to get out of the desert and into the sun

even if it's alone.

The history of LOL

I really feel as though the term LOL is sercurity word for me. I only type it as a filler when I have nothing else to say or if I am overly shy in a conversation. Or maybe I send it to make myself sound more sure of what I saying. Maybe just to protect myself if someone doesn't get what I am saying or so they dont take me to serious.. It's very odd but since I haven't been using it I feel as though I think more about what I am saying and my conversation seem to been intresting and have more meaning. alot more. Thanks Jon.