nighttime thoughts..

So I finally understand.....Why I have such a fear of hanging out with people who I call my friends but don't see too often. Well when I was younger I could never realy keep a freind. They would change from a couple people a week to one totally different the next, for basically the entire time I was in school. I don't know why but I couldn't keep any solid friends. Now I just feel or assume if I don't hang out with "friends" on almost a daily basis,that we aren't friends or feel some sort difference. And that's probably why evertime I meet up with freinds I get so nervous and awkward like we barely even know eachother and it takes me a little to warm up and be normal. To feel that comfort that I'm with a friend. Which normally comes natural to people I'm a weirdo.

irony

Going to chapters to find a self-help book for confidence shyness and self conscious. But being to afraid to buy it.


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